Washington DC, April 20, 1956

Mr. Norman W. (redacted)
C/o The buddy Rocco 3
The Colonial
Hagerstown, MD

Thursday

4:50-

My Dearest Norm,

     Received your letter today and I can't tell you how glad  I was. It was wonderful- Wat do you mean spiel interestingly? If you just write about the weather I think I would get your message- Your letters mean so much to me- Next to you they are the most.

     Last night as I was helping mother put diner on the table I was singing-( I do a lot of that anymore) "A fool am I, a fool am I, in love" & she giggled at me and said "you nut". I know she is happy that you have brought so much joy to me. She said she  hasn't heard  me sing like that since before I was married. My darling - you have made me very happy. I know there are and will be many moments of unhappiness, longing, even despair in the future, but the happiness I feel just thinking about you- how sweet & wonderful you are soon dims any lost feelings I have.Why borrow trouble worrying about the future? What is to be will be and I only want to be happy in my love for you.

     I contacted 2 Gen'l Mgrs today& car agencies and sorry- no passes- Joke baby-

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 who needs them- Besides I'm not the the type men make passes at- I have one more to call on tomorrow & I hope I'm through again- I may  not even do the store deal. It only pays peanuts- and incidentally I need more than that. The fatal phone bill arrived today-Yikes- 30.09 in calls to my darling and I might add- worth every penny & more. I've tucked 20.00 away toward it& hope & pray my next check arrives before the rest of the calls come in. Maybe we had better work out a system- I'll never save enough money for that trailer this way (I'm only kidding darling, don't tell me off)

    I want to dance wit chu- too my sweet- and that ain't all - can you guess? and angel I'm so glad you are getting sentimental and no in your old age- My Adonis- you are only as young(old) as you feel & you make me feel 16- and in love-and never been kissed till you.

     I'm glad you are the patient type my dear-I'll do my utmost to make it worth while. Do I have a meaning to you? There I go again getting nosey- gimmie a kiss X and a hug X and a kiss X wow-ee Your letter was the sweetest & greatest ever darling- do you know?- You send me??

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    My sweet- I think the POB is a good idea-I sure would hate for any of my letters to appear as evidence- and I don't want any holes in my head either.

     My dearest one- I can't teach you a thing.- even how to terminate a letter- just do as your heart tells you and I'll be very happy- besides I like my nickname (kitten) It makes me feel so little & wanted or something-

      Your letter was postmarked 5 PM the 18th- and the day before was 9 PM- do you see- I always get them the next  day- and oh how I look forward to them-If you enjoy mine dearest- you can imagine how much yours mean to me- after all, I love you 1000 times more-

     I'm so anxious to hear your answer about Sunday- I like what you said about the 2 extra weeks  in this lifetime we could have been together- It's getting so close to the time when our days will be so few & far between- I don't want to  waste a second under any conditions. Believe me Darling- I'll be a good girl & very careful until Monday then- look- out Bob will be playing golf all morning up until 2:30 at least, so  come as

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early as you can- Did I tell you I love you?

     Must stop now & get dinner for Mother & Dad- I wish I could talk to you tonight, but thats life- see you in a little while-

8:30 P.M.

Hi Prescious,

     Dinner is over & the dishes done-Needless to say I thought of your sweet presence the morning you wiped the dishes for me. Mother and I have been having a long discussion about us- Tell you? No, not until I see you. Now who has who guessing?

     I wonder if you are by any chance playing a tune for me now. How I wish I could spend every evening watching & listening to your beautiful music.- It's strange how I can only hear the guitar. Tonight I wish more than anything I could be there when you finish playing.- waiting-!! x x x What's your favorite perfume? I'll buy a gallon & save it for you.

     My writing style is only because I am thinking of you every second and when I sit down to add  more to my letter I feel we are a little closer I'm loathe to end the close feeling I love.

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     I feel I want to tell you everything I do & feel & think- I know it must become very boring for you at times. I also want to know what you do, even the little things- Your letters do make me feel so close to you- I love them Darling. Pause- I just read my last letter over- My darling-No-one has ever thought enough of me to write the way you do. It's another thrill I've never known.- Like so  many other things you have done to me. I know I needn't mention them.

     Well my Norm- I must write to some friends of mine, they must think I've dropped off the face of the earth- funny I don't have much to say to them.- I may go to Pa. next week-end. It's the 15th anniversary of your classes graduation from high school & the class is planning some big goings on- Tell you all about it Monday. If Bob refuses to go I'll pack all my best duds & going in the Chrysler- wow- that will knock them  dead- who cares- I just want to see all my old friends and have a ball for a change. I've seen very little of any of them in the past 13 years. They are all married with kids.- What do I have to show? - Nothing- How can any one person make such a mess of things? It's real easy when you have a bird-brain like me.

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     Maybe the future holds unknown miracles- Who knows?

Well so long - my sweet one- I'm aching to hold you- think about me & miss me- x x x x 

x x x x 

                      I love x

                                you x

                                         so x

                                               "Tenderly"

                                         Your

                                              Gini-

Washington DC, April 19 1956

Mr. Norman (redacted)
c/o the Buddy Rocco 3
the Colonial
Hagerstown, Md

Still - Wednesday 

4:45 P.M.

Norman darling,

     Why are you so much on my mind today. I feel as though I want to talk to you-but I just mustn't make another phone call. I wonder what you are doing now and if maybe you are thinking of me.

     I went out this afternoon to try to work but the owner of the agency I called on was out for the day- so I went over to Conn. Ave. to pay a bill and called Mrs. W. about 2:30- I stopped in to see her a minute and she had been in to see Bob this morning and he already told her you had been down. I was slightly in the dog-house because I hadn't told her first. She was very disappointed that you didn't even call her. I explained how rushed you were. I also told her maybe if you got down this Saturday we could get together- I told her you might be through here to return my book-(ha) She wanted me to write  and ask you to drive to Baltimore with us Sunday to see her parents for a little while & then she would take us out to dinner

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somewhere on the way back- Does that sound too bad?- We could be together a little while-& it would ease her pain- that none of you give a damn about her. She was talking about vacation too- as Bob mentioned that you said you would look around for a place. It might help the cause a little. Give me your views when I call Sat. Dearest one. 

     From there I went to Peake Buick & had a hose replaced in the front and that took almost an hour & while I was sitting in the waiting room- my mind was traveling the miles to you- I was singing to myself and oh how I love those quiet moments when no-one is around to interrupt my thoughts- I relived all our beautiful moments together. Then I came right home and here I am- telling you everything I did. Until tomorrow my darling- I'll add a few more lines and put this in the mail- I'm going to re-read your letter for already the 6th time today- 

thurs-9:45 AM

Good morning darling,

     I can't explain why but I feel blue this morning. Are you O.k.? I'm sure

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you are still sound asleep- I couldn't get to sleep last night- I wanted to love you  & hold you & kiss you and try to take away some of the worry & discouragement you wrote in your letter. 

     I'm writing this in bed so if it doesn't look like the same writing- that's why- come close to me dearest- let me hold your head to my breast- and kiss your beautiful hair- oh what's the use- I can't wait to see you.

     I hope you will consider going to Baltimore with us Sun. & spending the night at our house.- then Monday morning we could take off to our own little heavenly world. Bob said last night it would be swell if you would & to be here by 3PM sunday as his mother gets off then & we would leave around that time. I'm so selfish Norm- I don't want a single moment to be lost-It will be an eternity until I see you again and  my darling I don't want to share you with anyone. Besides it will save money for meals and a room. Bob knows I'm writing you this letter inviting you so there-

     Last night I finished the portrait and despite how badly it was started

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my critics were pleased with the finished product.-

     I must get up & dressed & be ready to take off as soon as R. gets home as I must finish off those darn car dealers today.- I would rather take off for Hagerstown!!!! Then tomorrow I start another one in Bethesda- Grocery stores-I don't know where she gets all this stuff- but she's sure throwing a lot of it my way. I will call you either Sat. morning around 9 AM or in the afternoon around 4. I can hardly keep from calling now- but I will.

     Darling please say you'll  spend your last week-end as close to me as you can. I wont ever ask you to do anything again. I love you and that in itself is almost more than I can stand. Well- guess I  had better stop now & get busy- I have a lonely, blue, depressed feeling to work off today- If you were only here to help me- I need you- I love you

Your

         Gini

    

Washington DC, April 18, 1956

Mr. Norman (redacted)

C/o The Buddy Rocco 3
the Colonial
Hagerstown, Md

Wednesday-

Hi My Darling,

     Just a short note to tell you I miss you and am thinking of you.- I miss you in everything I do. I hear your voice and feel your caresses at every turn- you are constantly with me. I long to feel the gentle touch of your hand- I long for your kiss, the warmth of your embrace when your strong young body is touching mine. How you set my passionate heart aflame. oh! my darling- how I longed to hold you tight in my arms all night long. I can hardly wait to feel you close to me, and yet I want to hold back the time  a little- because- when that moment comes it will be gone all too soon and I will probably have a long, lonely time until our next meeting. If you come to town Sunday, we can spend the day together too maybe- You really should stay here & save the hotel bill darling. I know I said I wouldn't ask you- I can't bear the thought of you being somewhere else- maybe with someone else.

     Do you like poetry Norman? I am enclosing my most favorite. I never realized how much it expressed how I feel about you.

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You are my shining star and all that my world means. Please dearest- wait for me.

     I hope I have a letter today- You will have & one tomorrow too- I wont write any more for a while-

     I wish you were going to be in tow Sat nite- would like to see Andres Segovia with you- He is at the Lisner Auditorium. I want so much to share everything with you my darling.

     Well baby- I must go get my duds on and go see if the dealers are as fresh as you say-If they are- I'll tell them I'm very much in love with my Mr. Wonderful, and no one else stands a chance.

     I'll be talking to you soon my heart- I hope you will have real good news for us.

     So long- take care of yourself-

Your own 

       Gini

                      Always

P.S. Try to get a picture for me

P.S. I love you

Your letter just arrived my darling and how I wish I could be with you- Don't be so depressed sweetheart- Maybe things are always blackest just before the dawn- I'm praying for you darling- I should say I have my fingers crossed- that would probably do the trick quicker.

     My dearest- I dread the thought of you going home- now I'm building a case I have no right to. I can't wait to talk once more sweet- there are things you can't even say in letters- I'm not having things easy either- really getting the treatment- Nag, nag- all the time. If I could but hold your sweet face between my hands right now and give you a long slow lingering kiss- all would be right with the world. Life could never be a drudge with you near My darling-

     I thought your tax bill was only 2.00 darling. what happened? Was there a mistake?

     

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Close your eyes and hold me close my darling- we should be together you and I- The need is there darling-  

     well - I want to write so much more- but you will soon be sick of my chatter- anyway-I want to say them to you personally-

     Keep that handsome chin of yours away up darling- have faith and you'll see things will work out-

Love Ya

   Gini

                 Purrrrr

Norman,

I love you

no only for what you are

but for what I am

when I am with you

I love you 

not only for what

you have made of yourself

But for what  

You are making of me

I love you

for the part of me

that you bring out

I love you 

for putting your hand

into my heaped up heart

and passing over

all the foolish weak things

that you can't help

Dimly seeing there

 and for drawing out

into the light

all the beautiful belongings

that no one else had looked

quite far enough to find

(over)

I love you because you

are helping me to make

of the lumber of my life

not a tavern

but a temple

out of the works

of my every day

not a reproach

but a song

I love you because you have done

more than any creed

could have done

to make me good

and more than any fate

could have done

to make me happy

you have done it

without a touch

without a word

without a sign

you have done it

by being yourself

                                       Purrr

Hagerstown, Md April 18, 1956

Mrs Gini (redacted)
4919 (redacted) Drive
Washington 16, D.C.

Wed. 2 A.M.

Hi Pet

     I'm borrowing one of your writing techniques- I'm going to write a few lines on this and then tomorrow, or whenever your letter arrives, I'm going to dash off some more in answer. I got your letter off this aft. before I started the evening session.

     Well tonight was a little better after last night. At least we had a balanced ratio of males to females and they had sense enough to get up and dance with each other (I want to dance wit chu.) The nite started slowly and picked up just when we needed the incentive. I managed to sneak a couple of

O'R'E

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bourbons on the rocks, without the maestro getting hip.

     After work I bought 2 bottles of gunther's beer at the service bar and retired to my room where I am now. I had intended to drink the beers and read Wash. Confidential  but what did I do instead? I got the urge to clean out my drawers desk and in so doing I came across your love letters. I  though I'd clean them out and just  keep the most recent one on hand. I arranged them in chronological order by the postmarks as a more or less absent minded mechanical action then I withdrew the first one from the envelope and read it through- One led to the other and  finally about an hour and a quarter later I had gone through them. Quite a cache I have here. Well, needless to say Honey, after reading them  I couldn't bring myself to dispose of them. Gettig sentimental in my old age I guess, eh?

     I wrote to Virginia tonight also and told her about the nice 

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time and meal I had at your place Sunday afternoon. The last letter I got from her was Postmarked Apr 9 so I guess my answer was a little overdue. Ok!!-Relax!!

     Gee Honey, I don't feel a bit sleepy. I guess the fact that I went to bed early last Mon. nite, plus the fact that I stayed in bed till 2 PM yesterday (wed) afternoon. (wow, what a set up for my next line!) No- I wont say it. Keep ya guessin-

     This was going to be a few lines Kitten, what a garralus old fool I'm turning into. Be different if I could spiel interestingly.

     Al's out again tonite on a hot date. He went to Waynesboro, Pa after work last nite and didn't get home till Tues. AM at 6. Looks like he's going to pull the same stunt tonite. Me, now, I'm the patient type. I don't go in

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for that fly by nite stuff. It has no meaning for me. It can't unless I form some kind of attachment to the party. hi sweetie- gimme a kiss. X oh!

     Buddy just went out for a bite I guess he's been writing too as I haven't heard a word from him till he left. He asked me to join him but I'm a little tired of his opinionated, blatant ranting.  Just as soon Rather stay here with you. 

     I think I'll shut off till tomorrow Little Kitten. I'd like to write my mother before I go off to sleep. I'll look for your note tomorrow sometime. So- till then-good X  nite X  Lover XX.

Wed. 2:45 P.M

Top O' the morn Hon,

     Morning hell! .Well as Al says morning is just a state of mind.

     I got your letter when I  came downstairs this afternoon around 2 P.M.. Needless to say I was glad to get it. We went (Al & I) to our favorite waffle shop for breakfast. This time I  had what I usually get, a double glass of fresh orange juice . a bowl of cereal with

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cream, and a cup of tea. While I was waiting to be served I read your letter.

     I'm writing this from the Post Office. If I go all the way back to the hotel to complete this note, I wouldn't have time to come to the post office to mail it and I think it'll go out more quickly if I drop it in here.

     I just asked one of the clerks what they get for a P.O. box. The fee here is 2.25 for 2 months and I guess it's the same back home. After thinking about it I've concluded that it's a pretty sound idea. Nobody can mess around with your mail or snoop. My wife has destroyed mail on me before I know. It wasn't from a girl friend either. On one occasion, it was from my sister and on another my mother.

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     Well, Kitten, (teach me a better phrase to terminate a letter with please!) If I don't shut off I'll never get this off.  Back to the grind. Clean up, shave, and the whole routine all over again. So- think about me. "Tenderly" is always one of  our first tunes and with it comes a picture of you, sitting in the Neptune Room that nite. I know now that I shouldn't have taken you so lightly the first couple of times that you came in. We.d have had a couple more weeks together in this lifetime. Again- so long sweetheart. I'll look for your next note. If I don't hear from you by Sat. , I'll call you, Sat. afternoon. Tomorrow I'll try  to get off a joint letter to the both of you, you know, thanks and bla, bla. You read between the lines when you get it.

     So until I see you Dear, my warmest affection for you -

   Your-

          Norm

P.S. I dropped this in the slot at 3:30 let me know when  it is postmarked.


*Blog Authors Note
This particular letter is postmarked April 18th. Little did my parents know at the time, that they would indeed make a go of it and give birth to a baby daughter seven years later on this date. Yup, ME!

Washington DC, April 17, 1956

Mr. Norman (redacted)
C/o the Buddy Rocco 3
the Colonial
Hagerstown, Md

Tuesday

April 17, 1956

To my Darling Mr wonderful,

     Just hopped out of bed and as usual my first thought is you. I can still feel your arms around me and your lips on mine. You are wonderful my Angel and I now have another beautiful memory tucked away in my heart. The day passed so fast and with such a warm happy feeling. It's just plain wonderful being with you under any conditions- I know sunday was difficult, it was for me too Darling- but the memory of your sweet kisses and your beloved presence in my everyday surroundings is with me today. I can picture you standing in the kitchen door, sitting next to me at the table, holding my hand when I passed you something,- and many more little things-Yesterday- the little things that count are very dear to me, and too numerous to write.

     I'm afraid to write the things I feel for some reason Darling- I know you don't love  me- and I hope you believe me- I know I'm not worthy in any way of you- I only feel grateful in my heart that let me in some little way-give you affection, understanding and maybe a little happiness.

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     I said, then, Dearest, since tis so since now at length my love awaits, since all, my life seemed meant for fails, sine this was written and needs must be- my heart rises up to bless-----Your name in pride and thankfulness I take back the hope you gave- I claim only a memory of the same, and this beside, if you will not blame I'll go on loving you just the same.

     You wont ever have to tell me again Norman- I'm living one day at a time and with both feet on the ground. The days that I will always cherish are ones we've spent together and the ones in the future-yet to be shared. If I land up on my pink cloud again-my fools paradise-pay no attention- I always come down to earth. Try to understand a little how very much I love you- my every thought & dream is you Darling. - I promise I'll keep them all to myself.

     I read your Wm. Shakespeare "This Above All: to Thine own Self be True"

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this I believe- you will always be true to what you believe and-

It must follow as the night the day

thou canst not then be false to any man

You are a fine wonderful person my Darling and I admire, and respect you

     My darling, you are no farther away than the phone and ok, then I want to hear your sweet, calm voice- I need you my heart is aching- Hold me close andlet me cry all the hurt away- soon- my love- I will give you my all- I hope I can make you happy for a few hours, you know I'll try, don't you.To hold your hand in mine- to hold you- oh! my Darling- just remembering your touch yesterday and holding you close- your gentleness, the way you looked at me- my darling you must do something about those eyes- they bring my soul into mine.

     Enough of this- I hope I have a letter tomorrow too- I will be working again for a few hrs. tomorrow & Thurs- on a car

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dealers survey. My instructions haven't arrived as yet but it will probably take me most of the afternoon to study them- I have to do a lengthy interview with the officials of 4 car dealers- that's all I know about it so far. You see-I'm never finished. I was supposed to work yesterday- but flatly refused.-My darling is more important to me than anything.

     I will be home every day until 10 A.M & back at 4 P.M- toorrow and thurs.- Bob is home until noon Thurs.-ha- I mean golfing - I will be home all day Fri. and Saturday- and longing and waiting patiently for our next meeting- oh- I forgot sweet- I have an appointment Sat Morn. at 9:30 at the hairdresser but will be home all afternoon. Who- knows- I'll probably call you long before you call me.- who knows maybe even right this minute- So there- I did- didn't I- and now to get this in the mail before I write a book again.- I'll be looking for your letter too darling- take care of yourself and think of me-

Your

                                Gini         Purrrrrrr

*Blog Authors Note

It seems I got the order of this and the letter before it  mixed up, they are both dated the seventeenth of april so I did not know which was first.

Hagerstown, Md April 17, 1956

Mrs Gini (redacted)
4919 (redacted) Drive
Washington, 16 D.C.

Tues. Apr. 17, 1956

4:15 P.M.

Dear Miss Gini Kitten,

     I went back to bed after you called ans slept till 2. Then Al and I got u[ and took our stuff to the laundry and had breakfast. Breakfast? I had a double orange juice to start me off and then franks and beans with side dishes of kale and cole slaw. Finished off with a cup of tea and a piece of lemmin pye, I guess I was making up for Monday morning.

     On the way back I picked up a magazine and my shirts that were finished and came back up to this empty room- with the

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other two in it.

     Still no inkling from Rocco on our possibilities   for work next week. every day that passes actually lessens our chances of having something to go to so I guess I'll have to start writing to some of my friends back home and let them know I'm going to be available after the 23rd(note I said AFTER the 23rd) heh!heh! I might even have to stoop to a day job to tide me over till 25th of May. But then honey, maybe I'm building a case, eh? Keep your fingers crossed and wish me luck.

    I think I'll rent a box at the Plainfield post office when I get home. It would facilitate our correspondence system to say the least.

     Last nite was very dead and the hours really crawled. A real let

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down after your warm presence all day baby. And on top of that the noise that Buddy brought back with him from the Ox. Oh yes and the fact that my tax bill is 60 bucks didn't exactly buoy my spirits either.. What a time for some affection and comfort. It makes the difference, Gini, Between making a life a drudge or a swinging thing day after day.

     Good luck on your new projects. Remember my advice about car salesmen. They are a corny lot with a line a mile long.

     Well, sugar, it is now-4:50

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 and I hae to shave and clean up for 5:30. I'll play a tune for you and be thinking of you. Take care of your little self and avoid drafts. I'll write again after I get your note of today.

Your- 

         Norm

P/S. Can't tell you how much I enjoyed your company yesterday. And I mean every minute of it.

*Blog Authors note

You see a reference to "the Ox" in this letter. This was my dad's word for his wife in the correspondence between he and my mother.

Washington DC, April 12, 1956

Mr Norman (redacted)
c/o the Buddy Rocco 3
the Colonial
Hagerstown, Md.

Wednesday 10:A.M.

My Darling,

     Just a note with the same message.-Hold me close, kiss me gently and then kiss me with fire as only you can. Press your cheek to mine and then- to feel your strong body- Oh Norman you are truly wonderful. I just got out of the shower and needless to say- a great deal was missing- I miss you so. I almost turned around so many times on the way home Mon. every place with the signs said Frederick- the temptation was terrible. I had to close my eyes and hold on tight until I was past it.

     You will have a letter today my darling- I wonder if I will, and you will have this one tomorrow- Must get some letter paper today- forgive the bits and pieces I'm using now. 

     I've been wondering what you've been thinking about since Monday did I make you happy? I know the answer sweetness, but it's so nice to hear. I love you- I wish I could explain why-. but there are no words to explain love- the excitement is still there when I think of you Darling, the quiet moments were just so exciting- just lying in your arms, dreaming, the slightest movement of your cheek against mine or your hand in mine. Every moment was a dream come true. Even watching you tie your tie and comb

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your hair- the way you walk- the way you laugh at me. I must seem very silly and unbalanced- to you Norman & it hurts me to think I might- (unreadable)  Please know whenever you need me- all you have to do is crook your little finger- why do I get this awful lump in my throat?- Why are the tears so ready to fall? I can't be crying when Elaine gets here so - I'd better stop for now-----

Thursday 1 PM-

Hi my angel, 

     This is a most wonderful day- there is only one thing missing- your sweet, wonderful presence I guess I want egg in my beer- I've heard your sweet voice and received your most wonderful letter. You have made my day a very happy one. Your words thrilled me more than I can say. I want to answer some of the things in your letter dearest-  as for feeling like a heel or criminal- I do too at times, but darling- remember I love you- nothing can change that- you have brought happiness to me because of that- you have given me a reason to live. My life is exciting and full of a good and wonderful feeling- I'm sorry in a way I can't feel this way about Bob, but there has never been anything there. Why is it there are so many mis-matched marriages in this world. The people who really would be good to each other and belong together never seem to make it? 

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     These things seem to be out of our hands, but fate stepped in, we met, and what we feel was meant to be. We are giving each other a little happiness that I think we are both entitled to. You said- Monday- " No matter what you do in life someone gets hurt". Maybe- no-one will be hurt darling- and maybe some time in the future things will straighten out for both of us. I can dream can't I! I hope some day we will be together and we will owe no-one an explanation for anything. If it never happens Norman- no-one can ever take these precious memories from us. I'll always love you and carry your affection (you call it like) for me in my heart. What we have experienced together is too beautiful for anything to mar. The hurts that people have handed out to us will be paid back in the end- the feeling I have for you is yours and yours alone as long as you can put up with me.

     I can hardly wait til Sunday- just to see your sweet face again- and kiss your tender lips- hold you close-every second we are together will add more wonderful memories. it may become difficult to just walk out Sunday morning dearest one- If you could come here for me & have breakfast- then we could drive out to see the cherry blossoms and stop to see

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Mrs. W. - Things would work out much smoother- Then we could come back for dinner before Bob returns from golf no questions would be asked. He is expecting you to drop in for a week-end and it would be quite natural. Please believe me darling - I'm not promoting any trouble- Just trying to avoid any un-called for comment. Believe me, and unexpected walk on Sunday morning would really be a clinker- in the works. Call me Sunday from Rockville, and in the meantime the groundwork will be laid- I'll tell you then what I think- but believe me sweet- the best way is to be as open as we possibly can without throwing any suspicions. If you want to call me before anytime Sat is O.k. I plan to be home all day-

     What news have you had about where you go from here? I'm praying you will be closer- I'd hate to lose you now. "you're my everything"

     As for the letters- don't you ever stop writing- They will not be found- I'm always on hand to receive the mail before Bob gets home. No-one else will bother it & Bob never gets in my drawers (joke). haha- They are stashed away so no one will ever find them.

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     Are you getting too many letters from me? Can you still carry them maybe I'd  better cut down. I'll write one a week, sixteen lines long.. how does that sound? Say how about getting a larger picture from Buddy to leave with me this week-end- I have a special reason for wanting to do your portrait for you if you don't ask him- I will- there- an ultimatum- Do you hate me for being so forward? It's really important to me darling.

     I'm so glad you don't get angry with me for calling you at such unholy hrs.- but when the urge hits me there's no stopping it- I call when I'm sure the breaks are with me- Mother was busy in the basement when I called this morning- and darling after that cold hard note I received yesterday I just had to hear your voice. I was sure I had made you most unhappy- It's no wonder I almost hit those cops broadside. I was really wondering! - Silly girl- after today- I know better. 

    Well my life, I must write another letter to my insurance agent explaining the theft of my 20.00 at the bank Monday. Before I can run out and mail this- yes I was robbed- such nice people in the world.

     You are the nicest, sweetest, greatest, kindest, most lovable- I could go on all day- I love you

Your

                                                               Gini                                     Purrrrrrrrr

*Blog Authors Note:

These next few from my mother to my dad are done in green ink on very thin onionskin letter paper, it may take a bit longer for me to get them up as they are very difficult to read.

Hagerstown, Md April 11, 1956

Mrs. Gini (redacted)
4919 (redacted) Drive
Washington 16 D.C.

Wed. 1P.M

My dearest little Gini kitten-

     Your tender note arrived today I must answer you immediately. Every delicious, exciting, affectionate moment came back to me as I read. Every caress and look recalled- Every embrace relived. 

     I'm getting a little afraid to write Honey. One of these days one of my notes is going to be intercepted or your cache is going to be discovered and then we'll be up the proverbial creek if we can manage a system of phone calls I think it would be a lot safer. But on the other hand I 

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look forward to your letters and there is no problem at this and as far as discovery is concerned. By the way, I have quite a stack already.

    Today Buddy and I went over and picked up our Md. drivers permits. That makes me almost a resident of this fair state. Ha! and why not? My stay here has been the greatest and it looks even more interesting since the first day of this week! 

     I have an appointment this Sun. sweetie to have my tax straightened out. A friend of Al's who lives in Silver Spring is an accountant by day and a musician by night. He's in a position to know everything which is peculiar to the musician's tax problem. So I am going to let him put me square with uncle. I told the cat that I'd see him late Sun. afternoon so- if I should happen to get in town fairly early Sun. morn. and you could go for a morning constitutional say up and down Western Ave toward Wisconsin

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Ave. as far as the hot shop on the corner. Any time we can spend together delightful- regardless. 

     You'll probably get this Thurs. afternoon. Why don't you call me on Sat. morning? Call as early as you please. If I was certain of where you'd be doll, I'd call you but until we can work something out you call me.

     Sorry you got cross examined when you got home. You apparently made excellent time. I felt that turning back the trip was useless. He must really care to be so concerned about you. Sometimes I feel like a heel or a criminal but- some things Gini we must have, whatever the 

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cost or consequence.

     Buddys friend has invited Al and me to join them for dinner tonight.We'll probably go to the elks and have a steak. They have very nice ones. She's making quite a stay of it. I think she's staying til tomorrow sometime. 

     Well baby, I'm going to cut out now and get something to eat.(I haven't had a bite yet today) I'm going to read your letter once more and then go to the post office and then back by way of the restaurant.

     Al just came in from Waynesboro. He had a date with a gal over there and this is the second time she's stood him up. Poor boy! He's fit to be tied. Don't you ever stand me up. Willya huh?

     Again kitten, so long til I hear from you. Take care of yourself and remember, the best line to give your tormentors, is "go to hell!"

Your lover,

            Norm

     .

Washington DC, April 10, 1956

Mr. Norman (redacted)
c/o the Buddy Rocco 3
The Colonial
Hagerstown, Md.

Tues. Morn. 9AM.

My Darling Norman,

     Never, no never in  all my life did I dream there could be such love. All the way to Frederick I knew you would be wonderful, but there is no way possible I could ever know how wonderful - Your strong arms and (unreadable) body - I want to stay in your arms for ever.There are no words in the whole world to describe how I feel.- or what happened yesterday. I floated all the way home on a pink cloud. I made Rockville by 6:30 and would have been home by 6:45, but I stopped for gas. Bob met me as I drove up- He checked the speedometer & not the one we turned back- Finally I told them I took a long ride & drove  & drove. I just plain wanted to be alone- just like Bob did that night we all went out without him.- I asked him why there had to be such a rumpus  because I felt like taking a ride- He said I was a woman- that was different--- Anyway enough of that- I retired at 9 & into your arms again I know I was an active girl yesterday my sweet-  I'm just getting old-I'm so stiff today-I need you-How did you make out last eve. my darling-

      Everyone is speaking to me again and we are going to look for an apt. this week. I hope we can move no later than the 1st of June. If we don't I am going to head for the hills.- Your hills angel-

     Well dearest one- Elaine is due in 15 min. I'm not dressed. My time sheet isn't  added up that I must drop off to my boss- and so another dull day with only my thoughts  and memories of you to brighten it. Oh how I will cling to every single moment we spent- You made everything too perfect- I still can't believe it all really happened. Am I still dreaming Norman. Hurry down dearest- so we can be together. I love you- I love you- I want to kiss you, I want to learn.

     So long My darling, Your Miss---

                                           Your own

                                               Gini always

Hagerstown, Md April 10, 1956

Mrs Gini (redacted)
4919 (redacted) Drive
Washington 16, D.C.

Tues. Apr. 10,1956

12:30 AM

Hi Gin,
     Just finished playing. Tired, hungry, thirsty. Going out to mail this and get a bite.
     Buddy's friend miss his other friend by a few minutes would have been something if they had met.
     Had 8 raw oysters for an appetizer for dinner followed with roast beef. (wow!)
    Will look for your letter. hope your trip was ok.
     This is the shortest letter on record.


                                     Your
                                          Norm

Washington DC, April 7, 1956

Mr. Norman (redacted)
c/o the Buddy Rocco 3
The Colonial
Hagerstown, Md.

Just after the phone call

 Fri

My Darling,

     It is always wonderful to talk to you- Your voice does things to me- and oh the things you say- You are so sweet Norman- Nothing anyone can say will shake my opinion of you-and nothing-no-nothing will change the way I feel. I could talk to you so much better- Norman- it's hard for me to express some things, that are deep inside, on paper. You are the only one that understands me completely in less than 2 hrs. of knowing me. Yes - my darling I am unbalanced. The kind of affection you have offered me is something I've never known. You've thrown me for a loop.

     I've just had a phone call from one of my co-workers and missed getting this in the mail my darling. I'll have it ready for the late afternoon pick-up so you'll have it tomorrow. - I should be working my sweet, but you are more important to me than money- more important than anything. They just sang "No Not Much" on TV- I like the part- "Do I want my arms around you, No, not much"- I really do Norman- I can hardly wait to feel their strength as you hold me close- Every song I hear seems to have a whole new meaning. You asked me once how much I love you- So much darling-More than the stars that fill the sky, more than the endless waves in the ocean- it knows no bounds- it's yours for the taking. You say it is a strong word- I agree-I only hope and pray someday you  will know the meaning of love- and when you do Norman-  I hope all the deep feeling I have will be yours. I know it will never be me but please know whatever happens I'll always be the same. You awakened feelings in me that I never knew- You can keep them alive  my darling or you can lock them all up inside me again- to keep for you.

     Elaine just called and is on her way here with her work for me to check- I'll have to hide this for a short time-

     Hi again angel- She spent the whole darn afternoon- It is now almost 5:30- Play sweet Norman- I wish I could hear you.

     It is pouring rain and gloomy out - I hope I can get a chance to mail this today-I want you to have it tomorrow-I'm going to close now and dive into the work or I'll be up away after midnight- I'll be waiting for your call Sunday just to hear your sweet voice-and Monday- I'll be in your arms kissing you with all my heart-  Until then remember I love you & think of me.

Your own

               Gini

Hagerstown, Md April 4, 1956

Mrs Charles  R. (redacted)
4919 (redacted) Drive
Washington 16, D.C.

    Wed. Apr. 4, 1956

5 P.M.

Dear Little Gini,

     Just a few short lines to you before I dash down and do the afternoon session.

     Can't tell you how disappointed I was this morning. It was just something beyond my control. I borrowed 20 bucks from the hotel to get my plates but I still have to wait until Thurs. to pick them up. I'm certain everything will be alright for Fri., with the same arrangements

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prevailing throughout- including the call.

     Last night the 3 of us went  to Martinsburg, W.Va and had Italian egg noodles, top round cooked in sauce, and a big salad (with garlic) They serve home style and there was about 3 times as much as we could eat. It would have been swell to have had you there to dig in with me. Are you diet conscious? Do you count calories? Well this stuff is supposed to put on pounds. Never with me though.

     It's wonderful to get your letters. They all have  a message and I love them.

     Got to run now honey-

So long little screwball

Love 

       Norm

Washington DC, April 2, 1956

Mr. Norman (redacted)
c/o the Buddy Rocco 3
Hagerstown, Md

Monday 1 P.M.

Dearest Norm,

     I can't tell you how much I loved my letter. I've read it every day since. I was afraid you were mad at me because I was so upset.

     I've thought about you so much this week-end. Hoping things went well and then again- Hoping you thought of me just a little. There I go being selfish again.

     I was hoping you would come through Washington on your way back-Wishful thinking I know.

     Buddy is stopping to see Mrs. W. today. I wish I was that lucky.

     Wednesday is drawing closer darling and you must know how anxious I am- also- how frightened too.You said I would know soon enough if you weren't pleased. I've never done anything like this before and it's on my mind constantly. I hope I don't get lost, the car doesn't break down-I make you happy- all sorts of things. If the weather is real bad we will have to postpone it darling- I must be home by 5 or shortly after. It's such a long way- I want to spend every second I can with you. You will probably get there before I do, so wait for me my darling. I hope to get away no later than 8:45 possibly 8:30- I'm not very gootd at lying sweetheart.

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That will be the hardest part.

     Today I did a big washing and no work- my schedule is very heavy- I'm trying my best to work it out-so I'll have my work in by the deadline.

     We are planning on your spending next week-end here. Please my angel don't let me down. Every moment we have is precious and so few & far between. I have so much to tell you- so much love to give you.

     I must stop now and get back to work- and get this in the mail so you will have it toorrow- If there is any change- call me tues. around 5pm or  Wed morning by 8:30. Until Wednesday my darling I love you with all my heart-

Your own,

                Gini

Hagerstown, Md March 30, 1956

Mrs Gini (redacted)
4919 (redacted) Drive
Washington 16, D.C.

Friday, March 30 1956

Little Gini Gal-

     Received your tender note this A.M.. Needless to say I doted on every word.

     We had another quiet week here- Probably on account of lent. We had a nice crowd tonight, probably because the hill-billy entertainer Jimmy Dean was across the street at 

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the Masonic Temple. He drew a tremendous crowd and we got some of the overflow. 

     We went out to dinner tonight at a place called the "Dinner Bell" which is about 3 miles down the Sharpsburg Pike. I had what they call country ham in these parts. It was delicious but it would have been so heavenly if you could have been with me.

     We made some "tapes:" this afternoon and after work we sat around and listened to our improvisations. It's always quite a novelty to

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listen to oneself played back. Buddy is contemplating the purchase of this tape recorder and we were giving it the business to see what it would do.

     After we heard the tapes we went to Mabel's and had hamburgers and coffee/tea. It brought back the other night when we were two were sitting together

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with our thighs pressing tightly together. My thoughts are projecting to next Wed. morning when we'll share those short precious hours together. On my way through Frederick this Sat. night I'll pick a convenient spot for us to meet. In my letter to you Mon. I'll give you the details on where.

     Now I have to get into my lonely bed- No Gini gal to cuddle up to and soothe me into dream land. No sweet, warm body to fit so subtly against mine- 

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No tender lips to inflame me. Enough of this hopeless talk. (for now)

     I'll roll in now and if I'm lucky I'll dream of my sweet Gini. Take care of yourself honey and think of your Norm.

Love, 

Norm

Washington DC, March 29, 1956

Mr Norman (redacted)
c/o the Buddy Rocco 3
the Colonial Hotel
Hagerstown, Md

Thurs. 3:30

Dearest Norman,

     It's such a dismal, rainy, cold day here. I just got home from work. I'm so tired wish I could curl up in your arms and be loved. I'm so disappointed- no letter- and you promised.

     While I was working today- all the music in the store was guitar- so pretty & I couldn't keep my mind on what I was doing. It will probably be all fouled up.

     I drove past the river-where they have the Watergate concerts in the summer and thought how nice it would be to be able to share one with you- on a summer night- under a moon. Holding your hand, looking at the stars and listening to the music. There are so many things I would like to share with you- walks in the park- reading a good book together- here I go- off on a tangent again- 

     Last eve. I went over to Mrs. W.s and we cried on each others shoulder. She talked to Buddy & he said it was snowing up there- I'd like to be snow bound with you!!!! She is really crazy about him. I got slightly tight before dinner & she did too- we almost took off & came up to spend the night- She said to tell you- when you come down to spend the week-end with us- she would give you & I the keys to her apt so we could be alone- How about that?!  I got home about 10:15 so tired and still a little 

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tight- Bob was here- he decided that I should go to bed since I hadn't had any sleep & he would go over to the toddle house for a hamburger. He came home at 4 AM - oh well- who cares! He was still asleep when I left this morning- it looks as though he wants to go his way without me. That suits me fine- as I haven't told him anything I've decided yet.

     My darling- please forgive me for calling you yesterday? I know you think I'm  a damn fool. I know neither my letter or phone call made any sense to you. Try to understand- if you can. Believe me Norman. I love you and you are the most important thing that's ever happened to me. I've read and re-read my two little dog eared letters  from you so many times- I'm living for the moment when I can give myself to you completely- if that's all I ever get from this life- just having the privelege of belonging to the one I truly love even for a few short hours- is so much more than most people have in a whole lifetime. You will make my life complete and all my dreams come true- I'm going to have faith- My fortune in the paper today said so- I always read yours too- 

     Don't ever have my handwriting analyzed-  darling- you might find out all sorts of awful things- it's so stinky- I'm surprised you can read it.

     Hope you still think of me- do you Norman?- Can I stow away in your guitar case too?- You will have to buy a bigger one to carry these letters around you know- This is one of the worst times of the day-

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when I sit down to write to you- I try to pretend you are talking to me- anyway I feel as though I'm talking to you-then I do go on! 

     Then my favorite time is when I go to bed- I close my eyes and you are there- holding me, kissing me----------------------------------------------and so into bliss---------------oh Norman- it will only be 6 days from now-does it seem like a long time to you. 

     All the way to Hagerstown the other night- I felt as if we were Crawling and it took hours- that's the way I'll feel all the way to Frederick hope I don't get arrested- then going home- the miles between us rolled by much too fast. If I could just push that little button & be there or you here- WOWEE----------

     You are my dream-Mr. wonderful- I want you so much-please my sweet answer my letter soon. if you plan to come through Wash. on the way to Jersey let me know you can park you car here & I'll take you to the train- then i'll pick you up on Monday- I would love to see you even for 5 minutes. Be careful driving and have a nice time- Give your little sweetie a kiss for me, think of me- I miss you so.

so very "tenderly" yours

                  Your
                      Gini

Washington DC, March 28, 1956

Mr Norman (redacted)
c/o the Buddy Rocco 3
the Colonial Hotel
Hagerstown, Md

Wednesday 9 AM

Dearest,

     I can't sleep-Morning has come , but still I can't sleep- My darling- I'm crying so hard. It was so wonderful to see you- I don't know what to do-This grieving for you is making me ill- I can't eat, sleep- all I can do is force myself to keep going- Norman I wish I could die- if only you could put your arms around me and never let me go-

     I'm so mixed up and confused-I don't know if you are really fickle- Norm please write me- Please put a little more of  You in your letters- I need you so- It's so hard  for me now not to pick up the phone and call you- It's right by my bed-My Darling, just to hear your voice. If only I could have stayed. You wouldn't like me this morning tho' my eyes & beak are all red from sobbing- of course if I was there I wouldn't be crying-

     10:45 AM

     You see how little will power I have where you are concerned.Talking to you helped a little-at least you straightened me out on a couple of things- I should really be ashamed of myself- the way I'm behaving-believe me darling I've never thrown myself at anyone before.There seems to be some force pushing me- I have no shame where you are concerned I don't even feel responsible- It was

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just meant to happen. I know I'll  never want second best after you. I know what heaven it will be, 9:45 next Wednesday.

     I don't know what to say- I feel so lost- I mustn't say I love you- with my whole being-every ounce of body and soul- every breath I breathe with every beat of my heart. How can I stop loving you? only when I stop living. It has only been 8 hrs. since our last fleeting kiss & less than 1 hr since our goodbye on the phone- oh but darling it seems like forever.

     I'm a selfish, brazen, brat and you shouldn't even like me a little.I' not worth taking up your precious time- or anyone elses for that matter- you are so precious to me- I want I'ts (excuse out of ink) will make you happy- always- I do understand why you can't say you love me- at least I'm trying- maybe when we see each other you can tell me-I have no right what ever to ask you to love me- I'm just a dumb little nobody wishing for  a star away out of my reach. I wish I could stay calm & cool  and live in my little dream world built solely around you.- but this feeling is all new and wonderful and when I start thinking about it- the smoldering, burning passion deep withing me keeps me all unnerved & out of control.    

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It's now 12 noon &
still no sleep-

     I'm just lying here thinking & holding you close to My heart- I don't dare write all my thoughts. You say I can put myself into the written page- oh my darling if I could I'd be beside you lying close in your arms. I've read your letter I received yesterday at least 10 times this morning I can hear your voice saying the words to me. Your dear sweet, tender voice that can make me feel as tho' someone really cares. I know different now- I'll share anything you will allow me to my angel, one whispered word is worth all the heartache. 

     I'm clearing out of here- that much I know- it will be a slow process, but one that is inevitable.

    Well sweet- I might as well give up and get up- I have so much work to do- Mrs. W. and Elaine just called- they feel fine- Mrs. W. wants me to come have dinner with her. I don't know if I can take it. We will both be talking about last night with love in our hearts- she's really gone on Buddy- and I can't bear the thought of discussing that fated night again---

     I can't write any more- Norm- My heart is too full and everything is coming out all wrong. Be careful & take care of yourself. Until next time.

 

Your
Gini

call me Thurs. around 4 or sat. around 11 or 12 noon or just sometime- I love you

Darling, may I please have one of those larger pictures of you- it would help with the portrait considerably.

    

Hagerstown, Md March 26, 1956

Mrs. Gini (redacted)

4919 (redacted) Drive

Washington D.C.

Sun. 25, 8 P.M.

Gini Gal,

     I'm all alone here today as Buddy went home for the week-end  and Al did too. It's been rather lonely and I've been thinking how terriffic it would be if  we had been toether today with nobody to bother us.

     I've just re-read  your letters and find them just as touching as when I first opened them. I think a better word to describe them would be exciting. I can't hep but get a little excited  when I read them. You have a knack

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for putting yourself into the written page and I can clearly see you as I read.

     I'll be looking forward to seeing you this Wed. although I feel that it'll be a rather trying set up what with not being able to embrace you. Just remember that we'll have to do all our talking with our eyes.

     I want to arrange to meet you in Frederick on the 3, 4, 5, or 6th Of April. if we can meet early enough, say around 9:30 or 10:00 A.M., we can be together until 3:30 or 4:00 P.M. What time are you expected home? I play an afternoon session at 5:30, so I don't think I could leave any later than 4. Lets have your views on the subject sweetie. We'll find a quiet little room where we can belong completely to each

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other for those few short hours.

     So-Until Wed. at least Gini gal, I'll say bye. Keep your sweet, crazy, little chin up.

Your lover-

              Norm

    

The Letter for Bob to read...

Dear Norman,

     Just a line to tell you our plans have undergone a slight change. since our telephone conversation. We will be up a day earlier as Bob has do do the commentary for a men's fashion show, Wed. eve.
     We are planning to come early Tues.- If  you would wait- we would like to have dinner with all three of you- Bob is going to try to get off by 4:30- we hope to leave Elaine's no later than 5:30- That should put us up there  by 7 pm. - I know you all have to be back by 8- if we find we are running later than that we will call you at 6:30- otherwise we will meet you in the Colonial.- No one feels like cooking dinner before we leave and you must know someplace nice to eat.-
      Bob and I are looking forward to having you spend Easter week-end with us. If you are coming by plane Sat. nite- We will meet you at the airport- whatever time you say.We can have a get together Sun. nite & I can take you to the airport Mon. afternoon in plenty of time. We have plenty of room and I would like to do some work on that portrait. I promise I'll cook better this time.
     I hope our coming up Tues  instead of Wednesday wont foul  up any other plans- if so- give us a call.
    Looking forward to seeing you all Tues. eve.
                                

Your loving fans

                                                       Gini, Bob, Virginia, Elaine & (unreadable)

Buddy, Norman & Al,

The Smiths & Wilsons request the honor of your presence at dinner Tues. Eve. at 7 pm on March 27- at a nice beanery  of your choice in Hagerstown, Md.

It isn't engraved but I hope it's formal enough- be seeing you-

Gini

washington DC, March 24, 1956-

Mr. Norman (redacted)
C/o the Buddy Rocco 3
The Colonial Hotel
Hagerstown, Md.

Friday Mar. 23, 1956

2 pm

My dearest Norman, 

    I could hardly wait until I got home from work today- I was so sure I would have a letter from you & you didn't let me down. I had a busy morning and have a lot of paper work to do today.

    I started on a labor of love last eve. Your portrait, My darling. I can never do your sweet face justice. I will try awfully hard tho'. You must remember I am a rank amateur & lack confidence. I now have 3 to do, my name is  gradually getting around. I take it you are interested in Art- You don't know how happy that makes me. I've never shared any of the things that I really like with anyone. Do you like to read, fish, ride horseback? Drawing & music I know about- These are the things that really interest me.

     My Darling- something in your letter upset me terribly- if I could only talk to you about it. I'm becoming more astonished, disgusted and afraid of what kind of family I'm connected with

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Please, Please Norman don't put me in their catagory. Maybe when I tell you  this you'll drop me like a hot potatoe. I must try to make you understand. I don't want anything to do with a fast shack-job- I'm just a girl from a small town and these things still disgust and bewilder me. I want something fine and good out of life- not just a moments happiness here & there. Ive never been interested in anyone else since I married Bob- I've tried to be a good wife. Under such adverse conditions and with such examples that I'm beginning to realize started long ago- I find I have very little to work with, I hate to think what happened the nite you spent with her, I prayed it hadn't I know I helped the situation along, but you are made of much finer stuff than that My Darling. I'm not reprimanding  you, just a little sick at the thought- I don't know what would happen to me if you let it ever happen again. I know you know what a mistake it was. I thank you for being honest with me. Now I'm going to be honest with you. If you ever accept her invitation- we will end before we ever get started. I couldn't bear it. You see I

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had lunch with her yesterday & she mauled & kissed me & told me she knew how I felt & kept bringing your name into the conversation- I don't even want to talk about you to her-Do you think I'm a prude- I only hope you will think more of me  for being above that kind of thing- sex and love are something that go together- it takes love to make it click and without it, to me it's a weakness. I love you Norman, I think of you constantly-My first waking thought is - Norman My Darling- I have no control over the other things I feel- but if we are ever to mean anything to each other in the life- and I feel strongly that someday we will-we must not cheapen it--I'll follow you to the end of the earth for what I feel is good and wonderful- I'll tell you  a secret darling- I don't intend to go through the rest of my life like this-I'm slowly dying of a broken heart under these conditions. I honestly didn't think I had an ounce of feeling left in my body-it's all there for you to take- but not for a moment or just long enough to release your feelings. I need you my love

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and I think you need me. At least I 'd like very much to be needed and loved and I mean completely. Please believe me Norman- I'm not just a fly by nite looking for excitement- True you've given me more excitement in one short day than I've known for my whole lifetime, but if that was all I wanted I wouldn't have stopped without going to bed with you.

     I've so much faith in you darling- You're not like anyone I've ever known. I wish I was right in your arms this very minute. I've been so depressed lately if this work hadn't come at this time, & if I hadn't  received your letter- I'm afraid of what would have happened to me.

    No matter what happens Sweet- I'll treasure every Kiss, every word, every touch we've shared and those eyes- You bring my soul right out of my body. I've never belonged to anyone so completely without knowing if  I ever will. I'll always, always love you.

     There is nothing rare about the way I respond my darling- it seems so right & complete and where I belong. You are so wonderful.

     I may sound completely rediculous  but do you know what I 'd like to do-

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Wash & darn your socks, iron your shirts, cook your meals (Maybe after those awful eggs you couldn't stand that) Share your every hurt, dream, wish- take care of you- I live every minute with you in my thoughts. Kiss  you when washing dishes- sit in your lap and cuddle in your arms- listening to music or watching TV- I'm not proposing Darling so don't be frightened- These are my innermost thoughts and you are the only one I can tell them to. I'm living in a dream & a life of fantasy I know- but it's all that is keeping me going.

     I long to hear you play your wonderful guitar and hear it talk- you do make it talk- it takes real feeling to do that. You are such a fine, deep person Norman, and even tho' I love you with almost complete abandonment- I admire you and consider you my friend. I don't ever want to lose sight of these things I see in you. Don't ever be shallow and let the baser things in life rule you- It had to be you Norman- you've brought me to my senses and shown me life may someday be a wonderful thing.

     My husband doesn't want children- after  I now can have them I find this out. Do you want children Norman? Legitimate I mean. Forgive me darling- I'm so serious, I don't mean to sound flip at times.

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    I'm going to ask for the same promise in this letter I asked in the last. Please come down & spend the week-end here. I have two very good reasons & I'm sure when you know what they are you will agree. First- Bob is a little disgusted with his mother's behavior & if you were  to see her alone I'm sure- It would not be good- Second- My mother pointed out it would be better for you to be here- as a friend of both of us- than for me to be meeting you at Mrs. W's or somewhere else. I can assure you- Everything would be O.K.- and a much safer level. Then to- I'm being selfish- I don't want to miss a second of time-with you. Even with someone around & there wouldn't be all the time- Bob works Mon. & golfs Tues. So you see- How about  Easter week-end- Please say  you'll come. Just drop a post-card sometime next week & say  you are planning  to come to Wash. to see us that week-end- I know Bob will insist that you stay here. Come down Sat. nite if you can- So much the longer to stay. I've run out of paper so guess I'd better close this book for now. Until I hear from you again- I love you

Your

      Gini

Sunday 1:30

Dearest One,

     I never should have called you yesterday. Do you think I could sleep last night? No- as soon as the lights were out- your sweet face was before me. I relived every caress- every bittersweet moment we've shared. I could feel your strong body close to mine.- your arms tight around me & your sweet kisses on my lips. I was holding you so close to me, my arms ached-It was so real I had to get out of bed to break the spell. I just can't go on thinking about you like this my angel or I'll be a raving maniac. I need your love and you more than I have ever needed anything before in my life. I love you with all my heart & soul.- I wish you could find it in your heart to believe me. I'll be patient my sweet-at least I'll try with all that's in me.

    Say- now aren't you the one- receiving two letters in one day- and phone calls and all! I'm such an idiot- I' afraid darling- so afraid of being hurt and yet I can't stop myself from going pell-mell into it. I'm really asking for it I know. Should I stop writing? Do you want me to? I miss you so.

    I'll never forget this last birthday as long as I live. I received the greatest 

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gift of all- I.met you.

     I sat here last eve. by myself and watched the Lawrence Welk Show & you were in my thoughts- They played a song from the Eddy (unreadable) Story that expressed something I feel- I can't remember the title  but some of the words were -"you have the right to love a second time" "You can't live in the past"- (unreadable) I wish I could remember all of them.

     We didn't go to the dog show & Bob went  out to deliver my audit to one of my co-workers & stayed there until 10:30- I didn't care- It left me alone with my thoughts. WOW ee-

     My Darling, my greatest hope is  that I will be all you want me to be.-I have so much to give. I'm jealous of every minute we are apart every second that we can't share. Would you love me 24 hours a day? I'm afraid I would never let you alone & you would soon grow tired of me.

     I spoke to Bob last eve.about your coming down next week-end  and believe me Norman he's all for it. He  doesn't remember anything he said or did at Elaine's & feels bad that he was so drunk. Please believe me- he knows nothing. He thinks you called  me yesterday to check when we were coming up.  Everyone knows I talked to you & I'm sure we will make it yet.

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     It will be torture to see you for such a short time and yet so wonderful. My eyes will answer Yours my darling- every inch  of me will be wanting You. Sit beside me at dinner if possible, maybe----ok---- Norman-I love you so much.

    Until Tues my love- I just can't wait anymore- my heart is aching & I have a lump in my throat. I want you so.

Your

        Gini

                      Forever

P. S.  1 I'll come all the way to Hagerstown if you say so- I love you

P. S. 2 The other letter is for Bob to read.

P.S. 3 Break the news gently to Buddy- about me coming up- Mrs. W. hasn't made up her mind yet-tho' I'd be willing to bet she won't stay home. I hope he will be nice to her- maybe it will ease the pain a little

                                                      Gini

*Blog Author's Note:

I had no idea when exactly my parents met. Until now. 

Mrs. W. is the slutty mother in law in case that was confusing.

Who knew 1956 was not anything like "Leave it to Beaver"